Only Child
I read once that in the original Snow White fairytale, there was no stepmother, only a real mother filled with jealousy of her daughter. A sort of "be careful what you wish for" tale. I thought about of the mothers with Postnatal Depression who cannot bond with their children and wondered if this was the true story behind Snow White. I do not mean to demonise anyone with Postnatal Depression or other illnesses, but to try and see the story behind the fairytale.
POSSIBLE TRIGGERS: Domestic violence, child abuse, postnatal depression
Only Child
(A retelling of Snow White)
There were pills
A counsellor
Things got better for a time
I tried to love her
Tried to relish the fact her beauty grew as mine faded
Tried not to see how his love for me faded as his for her grew
I threw the pills down the toilet,
Nothing would make it better
I wanted her to bleed like I had for her
I wanted to see that snow white skin split open
I wanted her to feel the pain that I did
I slit open
That snow white skin
So many cuts
I cut my only child
And felt no remorse
Somehow I failed
She broke free
Running down the street leaving behind her blood drops like rubies
The surgeon in the hospital who sewed her up
Had a face like a prince in a storybook.
I knew that he loved her at once
Just like everybody else
I played the grieving mother but this time no one believed
She didn't look at me as they took me away to the psych ward
They say I won't see jail and for that I am grateful
Here in this ward where the walls are painted like a forest
Because they think it will keep us calm
She visits me and tells me I am still her mother
I relish the scars that cover her arms and chest
And mar that skin as white as snow
They should not have shown me mercy
If they ever let me out
I will kill that snow white bitch.
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